I have a tendency to do that, especially when I feel overwhelmed and incapable. I have not been writing my way out of this depressive episode, but I have been able to focus on other things that seem to be nudging me toward recovery.
I quit my unpaid, 20-30 hours per week volunteer “job.”
I returned to an activity that I loved when I was younger, and even though it’s much harder than it was 30 years ago, it is giving me a couple of hours a week outside my head – which is wonderful.
And I’ve been drawing. Have you heard of this Zentangle® thing? I’ll be honest, my first thoughts were, “Right. Some little fucking doodles are going to help me deal with my anxiety and the nasty little voices in my head.” I was totally wrong. Zentangle helps…well, helps me, at least.
So I’ve decided to incorporate it into my writing and blogging. The meditative process of drawing a Zentangle encourages me to write, and in the next couple of days I’m going to share what that looks like.
In the meantime, here’s a drawing I did yesterday.