Yesterday was a good day. The sun shone, I had some energy, I got some things done – like laundry. I stood outside and gulped great lungs full of the sweet spring air, and for a brief time, the darkness retreated to the cobwebbed corners of my mind.
The bad days still outnumber the good, but a day like yesterday reminds me that I wasn’t always in this dark state, I was once a cheerful, optimistic, hopeful human being, someone with purpose who was looked up to by those around her. And I will find my way back to that person, am already on my path there. There are parts of her I plan to leave behind, but my core being is calling, begging me to remember how it was to feel happy with myself and the world. I am seeking that light in the darkness.